To start this post let me say this. I don’t make this post or include these pictures to conjer up sympathy. Of course we continue to welcome prayers, support and good thoughts for Mitchell always! :)
When Mitchell had his first surgery at 9 months, we had not made many of the close connections that we have now. We have had many people ask us questions about the surgery and what it was like the first time around. It’s so hard to explain the abrupt change in appearance from this extremely invasive major surgery. So I found these pictures on my parents computer that can give perspective more than my rambling words ever could.
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| Mitchell's 9 month portraits about a month before his first surgery |
The hard part about dealing with Mitchell's diagnosis of metopic craniosynostosis (which was also a blessing) was that he was an active, thriving infant with absolutely no delays or other concerns/ issues. He had no syndromes (again, a true gift from GOD) showed no signs of ICP and the day before his surgery he was inches from taking his first steps at 10 months of age. He was just our sweet, happy, active little guy with bright closed set eyes and a ridge on his forehead. The diagnosis was more like knowing of a large shark, lurking in dark waters that you are swimming in. It can not be seen....but you knew it was there and eventually it would most likely be a life threatening and immediate issue if not dealt with.
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| Out of PICU on June 14, 2005 and into a room one day after surgery |
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| Thank goodness for our binky and blankets that smelled like home (and Mommy) while we couldn't see! |
The first time around, we had no idea what to really expect from Mitchell’s surgery. The doctor’s and nurses talked with us, I had talked with other mom's on the wonderful on-line connection of CAPPS, but I remember going into things just wanting to be on the other side.
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| Our first day back home after surgery....June 16, 2005 which was also our 4th anniversary. Up and wanting to play! |
Maybe it is because we have done this all before, but this time I seem to have the opposite feeling. I just want to live in the moment and enjoy Mitchell and our family and dread September 19th. Many people say to us wonderful words and we often hear well intended comments like “don’t you just want to it be here and over?” And while I probably should feel this way….I do not. It’s hard for me to want to hurry up and do this to him again. Even though I know he needs it now because of his ICP and I know he will bounce back like the great little boy that he is. It’s hard for me to wish to hurry up this surgery on him when I am not the one who has to actually endure it. It is hard for me to wish the date to be here sooner to again slow down this giggly, amazing, bright, caring, funny 7 year old. Once again we are blessed to be totally symptom free, doing great, thriving and loving life. But now once again that shark has found it’s way back into the waters of our lives that must and dealt with.
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Mitchell and Dr. Singhal the pediatric plastic and cranio facial surgeon that will perform his second FOA in less than two weeks. Dr. Singhal is also the specialist who diagnosed Mitchell and did his initial surgery at 10 months old.
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Today we spent the day at Children's Mercy for pre-op appointments, blood work, and meeting with the anesthesiologist. It was a long day filled with lots of waiting and adults talking but Mitchell was a trooper. Surgery will be about 7 hours long. Mitchell will be in PICU for one day and then be moved to a room after that. We are hoping to be home by Thursday or Friday that week if all is going well. We also learned that there is a possibilty that he can go back to school (starting with 1/2 days) earlier than the 3 to 4 weeks we were initially told if he is doing well. Mitchell was very happy to hear that he will be able to participate in PE and recess (no contact sports or tag however...not sure how that will work with this very active boy) after 3 weeks. He will have to wear his protective helmet for 3 months after surgery while at PE, recess or anytime he is on the go. I asked him tonight what he heard today and one of the things he said right away was "that I can play t-ball and soccer next summer and I can do swimming lessons after 3 days!" I was quick to correct him that he could return to swimming lessons after 3 months.... :) Then he asked "what's a drain and why do I need one after surgery? Is it like the sink?" Good dialogue and I learned that he heard more than I thought he did after all today.
He will do great. It will be fine. I do truly pray for and believe in this. I think this time around Chad and I just know too much. Again, I do not write this blog as a pity party. It is just where I am at right now on this journey . I have read so many blogs, facebook pages and posts from other cranio parent's who have been so honest about their thoughts and feelings. I can only hope maybe my posts on Mitchell's second frontal orbital advancement can help someone else in this experience like others have helped us.